вЂњFor him saying, вЂThe woman I walk out with is the women I love the mostвЂ™ - like wrong fucking answer! Love isnвЂ™t measured. вЂњI donвЂ™t think you just tell multiple women that you love them, thinking there would be no consequences,вЂќ Gabby fires off. Gabby asks, вЂњHow would you feel in my position?вЂќ She storms off and tells the cameras, вЂњThis is bullshit.вЂќ It just means I have a stronger love for somebody else.вЂќ вЂњWho is the best fit for me? Who do I love the most? Once I make that decision, all the other love, it was real, but it ends there. вЂњThatвЂ™s what IвЂ™m figuring out,вЂќ Clayton starts to explain. вЂњUltimately, whoever I pick, I love the most,вЂќ Clayton says to Gabby, who tells him this news is hard to hear, wisely asking, вЂњLike, why wouldnвЂ™t you just save it?вЂќ Then, Clayton speaks separately with both Rachel and Gabby. вЂњI canвЂ™t go into a relationship with secrets,вЂќ he says, explaining that he wants to continue dating both Rachel and Gabby, so he can continue to take his time to figure it out. Maybe itвЂ™s easier just to go.вЂќД¬layton tells the host that he knew this honestly would hurt both of the women, but they deserve to know the truth. Gabby tells a producer off-camera, вЂњI donвЂ™t know what to do. вЂњHeвЂ™s in love with all three of us?! And heвЂ™s heartbroken that Susie went home?вЂќ Rachel says, laying flat across the stairs, crying hysterically. (Truly, this episode of вЂњThe BachelorвЂќ might have secured its place in Bachelor Nation history for the most tears ever shed in a finale.)

And I also was intimate with both of you.вЂќД¬ue the waterworks. вЂњI was in love with her, and I was in love with each of you, too,вЂќ Clayton tells Gabby and Rachel, before the real zinger. He says he wants to tell them the truth and wants them to feel comfortable to ask him any questions. Standing in front of both women at the rose ceremony, Clayton says he is вЂњshattered into pieces at the moment.вЂќ He tells them about SusieвЂ™s departure, saying, вЂњIt just had me questioning everything about what her and I had, and I felt like at the end of it, I couldnвЂ™t even look her in the face and I didnвЂ™t even know who I was looking at.вЂќ вЂњI know that tonight could be the end of this whole thing for me.вЂќ вЂњI donвЂ™t know how, after they hear that, theyвЂ™re going to move forward,вЂќ Clayton says. Rachel and Gabby had no idea that Susie left, and they certainly had no idea that Clayton is heartbroken over her departure. (And Palmer wasnвЂ™t lying when he told Variety last week that it really would be the most вЂњemotionalвЂќ and вЂњunforgettableвЂќ rose ceremony in вЂњBachelorвЂќ history.) I want to believe love is here, but itвЂ™s all up in the air at this point.вЂќ Through tears, he continued, вЂњI need somebody to help me because IвЂ™m so broken.вЂќД®nter the rose ceremony from hell. вЂњIвЂ™m just so messed up at this point, and I donвЂ™t know what is going to happen. And I feel terrible that I was so upset and angry,вЂќ Clayton said, sitting in church. Last night, everything blew up and Susie left.

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